I don´t know how many time people on my journey ask where my goal is. Which place which country or place of interests etc.. Ok maybe the next country or region I could imagine but no more. My search was not tourist places or beauty countrysides, beaches or buildings of stone. Of course I would not turn around if I would come close to one but it was not my priority. After many time I get ask about this topic more and more it became clearer. Even for me hahaha. The distance to my country longer and longer, the thoughts about smaller and smaller. Family, friends, job, parties so far and small already after only two and half weeks traveling. So many impression, so many new things so many people and cultures I crossed and still will. My observation became stronger and clearer, my listening get assisted from the other sense organs. Once in while I had really a hour or more conversation without to have any idea in which language the person was talking in front of me. Today its quite clear for me if the hearts are open you will understand any message from any person from any language. That idea of open heart understanding became stronger and stronger during my journey and later also a big part of the teaching what I learned from my Sifu(Master).
Now I had many time so I listed down for my self the true reasons for my journey and what I ´m seeking for:
- is this the reality
- is there are other realities
- who am I beside name and job
- where my emotional explosion / tension is coming from
- why I´m born
- hole purpose of live
This small list showed me again and again my deepest interest of live. My lifestyle at that time itself would not reflect this deep questioning. Easy going, every day party, lot of laughing, wine,dame,song beside work and studying. Everything good, enjoyable but somehow not satisfying. All that easy going and fun could not quench the thirst of “I want to understand”. And somehow I just was following the internal call. Today I understand it was following my “true nature” not my “earth nature”. Earth nature is interested in:
These listing is used by status, family, job, any ranking, car….and so on. Comparison, status improvement and measurement is the main ambition of an earth nature human. A so called heavenly human/ true nature is looking for answers behind all the so called important things of an earth human.
Transsiberian Train Dez 1984